Friday, June 1, 2007

The Journey Begins


I have put this off for quite some time, for two reasons. First, I hate journaling. I don't like to go back and read what I was thinking who knows when in whatever circumstances. It's usually depressing to find out that I really haven't made any progress. Second, I'm always afraid that someone else will read what I wrote! I have burned almost every journal I ever kept for fear that someone would pick up a random notebook and decide to take a peak. I have spent most of my 28 years attempting to hide my inner self from a cruel world. I am motivated by reading the blogs of a bunch of people who I find are much like myself, who also reserve the real them for a very few, who are making the move toward transparency.

As to the title, that is the real me. A princess, a daughter of the King of Kings. Anyone who knows me will tell you that doesn't mean I'm all that "feminine" in the most thought of sense of the word. I'm not into hair, nails and makeup. I try to take care of myself and present myself attractively, but I'd much rather be farming or fishing (at least since I started dating a farmer who happens to own a lake!) I've worked construction and groundskeeping and loved it, and neither of those professions help with keeping great skin and pretty nails! I have discovered, however, a different definition of feminity. The book Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge has been very instrumental in redefining my view of my own worth and beauty. Part of my beauty is the warrior in me. The fiercely loyal, staunchly dedicated, ready to fight for whatever needs fighting for me. I haven't figured out what to do with her, yet. That is the journey.

3 comments:

alicialeneehill86 said...

you are such an amazing woman...and not how most people think of women (which some people may take as an insult, but you know exactly what i mean...). you truly are a princess warrior! and for that i love you like crazy...

keep up your journaling...you may have inspired me to begin my own "journey." you're pretty good at that. i love you and i love what you wrote. i pray that you will continue on your journey to transparency while encouraging others to do the same.

love ya...and remember, you are so dang gorgeous!! :)

Mel said...

Elaine Elizabeth!!
I am very excited to see you open your heart. So many things are happening right now in your life and you have chosen to participate whole heartedly!! God will honor and bless your willingness to trust him. Life truly is an amazing journey, don't waste another second! You know my heart, more than most people ever will and you know you hold a special place there.

Love ya!!

Jo said...

I am so glad to see you online. I dont always enjoy the writing thing but I always find that God blesses me when I open my heart and share what he wants me too. Keep on writing and being the awesome person that you are.