I have put this off for quite some time, for two reasons. First, I hate journaling. I don't like to go back and read what I was thinking who knows when in whatever circumstances. It's usually depressing to find out that I really haven't made any progress. Second, I'm always afraid that someone else will read what I wrote! I have burned almost every journal I ever kept for fear that someone would pick up a random notebook and decide to take a peak. I have spent most of my 28 years attempting to hide my inner self from a cruel world. I am motivated by reading the blogs of a bunch of people who I find are much like myself, who also reserve the real them for a very few, who are making the move toward transparency.
As to the title, that is the real me. A princess, a daughter of the King of Kings. Anyone who knows me will tell you that doesn't mean I'm all that "feminine" in the most thought of sense of the word. I'm not into hair, nails and makeup. I try to take care of myself and present myself attractively, but I'd much rather be farming or fishing (at least since I started dating a farmer who happens to own a lake!) I've worked construction and groundskeeping and loved it, and neither of those professions help with keeping great skin and pretty nails! I have discovered, however, a different definition of feminity. The book Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge has been very instrumental in redefining my view of my own worth and beauty. Part of my beauty is the warrior in me. The fiercely loyal, staunchly dedicated, ready to fight for whatever needs fighting for me. I haven't figured out what to do with her, yet. That is the journey.
As to the title, that is the real me. A princess, a daughter of the King of Kings. Anyone who knows me will tell you that doesn't mean I'm all that "feminine" in the most thought of sense of the word. I'm not into hair, nails and makeup. I try to take care of myself and present myself attractively, but I'd much rather be farming or fishing (at least since I started dating a farmer who happens to own a lake!) I've worked construction and groundskeeping and loved it, and neither of those professions help with keeping great skin and pretty nails! I have discovered, however, a different definition of feminity. The book Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge has been very instrumental in redefining my view of my own worth and beauty. Part of my beauty is the warrior in me. The fiercely loyal, staunchly dedicated, ready to fight for whatever needs fighting for me. I haven't figured out what to do with her, yet. That is the journey.
